It’s been awhile!

So my last post was me underneath a dryer, getting my hair done. Yeah needless to say it turned out green & im going to try to go back to my original girl, who just happens to be my ex sister in law. Which was why it was suggested to me to try someone else. And well like I thought, that went down the pooper! Anywho, I could give two cruds about hair right now. I’m in a funk y’all. Anywho, Christmas has came & gone. It was amazing. We had Christmas in our new house, even though our move in date was delayed. It was an absolute blessing! New Years has came & gone. My grandparents kept our babies & let us have a night out. Which ended, sober & in bed before 1:30! We are real party animals!πŸ˜‚

So like I said I’m in a funk. I keep praying about it. I’ve dealt with anxiety my entire life. Sometimes, I hardly notice it & other times it’s like inevitable. So in my previous post I wrote about my grandmother having cancer. Well she went to the doctor on Wednesday & they found another spot. Which means the doctor wants to do surgery to remove it all, which means taking out some of her stomach & intestines. She will be cut from her breast bone to her belly button. She’s in way better shape health wise than she was when she was diagnosed, so the doctor is more comfortable now. I’m not sure I’ve mentioned this, but my grandmother & I are super close. She’s my best friend. The one I turn to for everything. I talk to her atleast 5 times a day, and we text none stop. I tell her legit everything! She is everything to me. She is in her 70’s and I just can’t lose her, y’all. I can’t. A part of me would literally die inside. I’m so scared. I’ve cried everyday since Wednesday. Without her or anyone else knowing, not even my husband. My anxiety is through the roof. Sometimes I can’t even think. I do not want her to have to continue her chemo shots every month, she hates them. They make her sick for days & so weak. So this surgery is the alternative. I know she’s scared but she has a strong relationship with God. She is so strong. I’m trying to be strong, and I am. Until I’m alone, and I just cry & cry. I’ve even done it once in front of my children, which I shouldn’t. But sometimes I can’t help it, and the little arms around my neck, make me feel alittle better.

We would appreciate prayers, and if you don’t believe in prayer, send good vibes! Prayers for the doctors, his staff, and for my grandma, to heal & get home fast!!! I love her so much.

Thanks in advance.


New Years resolution πŸŽ‰

So as I’m sitting here scrolling through my Facebook feed, I stumble upon one of my friends who is a Beachbody coach! Her & I were pregnant at the same time. I was just a couple of months ahead of her. I gained 30 pounds, which was more than I gained with my first. She gained 75 pounds with her first. So once she was able to workout, she put on a free boot camp! And of course, I was ready to lose the 15 pounds I had left of the 30 I gained. I joined her boot camp for 3 weeks. I lost 8 pounds. I could have done better but I was happy about it. It’s been probably 3 months since then & I’ve lost all the weight I gained & kept it off. 

I need to tone though. For real. πŸ˜‚ Anywho, she has been doing the Core De Force program for the past 30 days & posted her results today. Y’all, amazing! Has anyone tried this program & had great results? She’s the only one I know who has tried it. I can read about it but I would rather hear from people! Getting in good shape is our New Years resolution. Even though we say it every year. Ha. 

Y’all have a great day!


House update! 🏑

Y’all!!!!!!!! Eeeeek!

Our house should be finished before Christmas. I was super down a couple of days ago, because we thought it wasn’t going to be finished by Christmas. But good news came & looks as if we will be in there the beginning of next week! Floors & counter tops go in this weekend!! I’m beyond excited!

So this weekend, on Saturday. My husband & I spent ALL day together, KID FREE! Kid free. We haven’t had time alone like that in 2 1/2 months. Which is wayyy too long. We’ve just been so busy. But this weekend, we needed to finish the Christmas shopping! So we knocked it out, and had so much fun. I mean we always do, but we usually have our kids. Everyone tells me, y’all need to get out more. Yes, every now & then but we would rather be together with our kids! My husband is such a hard worker & I was very blessed when I met him! He has been my best friend for 7 years, we’ve been together for 5, and married for almost 2. So I literally married my bestie! At first when we met, we were strictly just friends. He wanted to date but I was young & had just got out of a really toxic relationship. So I wasn’t ready.

Anyways, that was so nice. He’s my human!❀️I just love him! My kids are going to love all his presents! I can not wait for Christmas morning!!!!

I hope you all had a great weekend. Have a great week!!!


I don’t know how to say it!

I don’t even know how to start this. I want to explain without giving too much detail. But this subject is so complicated, I’m not sure how I’m going to do that.

At the beginning of this year, something happened that threw my immediate family for a loop. Someone in my family, ended up going threw a divorce. They had been together for 10 years, and married for 7 with one child. We all thought they would end up back together but by the time my family member decided to try to make it work, the spouse had checked out. Anyways, so since then, we have heard about them & said family members life drama. From dealing with ex spouse, to dating, to dealing with depression, etc. At some point in every conversation this has come up, EVERYDAY, for the past almost year. You guys, I’m not exaggerating. If you knew some of my family members you would understand.

So my dilemma is, I hate negativity. I hate drama. How in the heck do I tell someone I love that I’m tired of hearing about it/hearing people talk about it. When someone comes to me for advice on how to handle my family member, on what to say to put them into check, and I have a different opinion, I turn out to be the bad guy because I don’t feel sorry for them. I just can not deal anymore. I have my own life, I don’t need to hear about or let someone else’s life affect me! It has nothing to do with me or my little family so why would I let it upset me. Why should I be bitter? Why should you be bitter or them for that matter? It’s been a year, pick yourself, take care of yourself, and move on. Don’t be bitter, one because it’s not good for your child or your health. Do for yourself & quit leaning on everyone else to do for you.

Also, stop babying them. After 32 years, they should know what to do…FOR THEMSELVES! You are part of the problem. You are enabling them from becoming better! So stop.

If I was to say these things no one would talk to me ever again. EVER. I promise, y’all. So I’m stuck. I don’t know what to do or how to deal with it.

Maybe I sound heartless, but if course I can only share so much. I sure if you knew everything, you would feel the same. How do I gently tell someone just to not talk about it around me? Or should I just get up & leave the conversation, everytime it happens?

On a better note… go to my next post!


December 4 πŸŽ„πŸŽ…πŸΌ

Well it’s officially cold now here in Oklahoma. Which means, atleast one of us will get sick. That one just so happens to be my 3 year old. He seems better today, but still has a cough. Keeping him away from his sister is the biggest problem we have. He loves to play with her! But she’s only 6 months, so if she were to catch something it could potentially be bad. I’m hoping it clears up soon, he was super upset he wasn’t able to go to church today. I’d rather him stay home than spread things to others.

On another note, if you’ve read my previous blogs, you will know we are on the last remodel of our new home which is the kitchen! Welllllll…. it’s ALMOST done! Which means, we get to move in! Which also means, we get to have Christmas in our new home!πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ™ŒπŸΌI’m so excited! I can’t wait to decorate! 

Our little lady turned 6 months yesterday. Friday we went to the doctor and she got 4 shots! She was so upset, so mad. It was the saddest thing I’ve seen. She cried big ole tears but she’s been fine since. I can’t believe how big she is! 17 pounds, 26 1/2 inches! My husband is 6’5 which makes since to why we have huge children. Haha. Our son is super tall, everyone thinks he’s 5! He’s 3 & wears a 5 in clothing. Our son had a milk intolerance when he was born & it took switching doctors for us to figure that out & by that time he was 2 1/2 months old. So we had a little set back with his weight. She’s much chunkier than he was at this age! I think it’s the cutest thing ever. They are polar opposites but they both look so much like their daddy! I carry them for 10 months & neither look like me. Our son got my eye color & that’s it. πŸ˜‚ That’s usually how it works, I guess! 

Well I’m going to stop rambling, and go enjoy some coffee & watch Nemo with my babies! Hope your weekend was fab & your week is just as great!

Oh btw-Boomer Sooner-Big 12 Champs!!